Are You Thinking Of Leaving Me?

I feel I'm in the way
Like I am bothering you
You seem distant
What is going on with you?

It's kind of getting weird
Between me and you
I feel like your leaving
And I don't know what to do

Before the year ended
Exactly 5 to midnight
I told myself I would let you go
To help you do whats right

I didn't tell you anything
I kept it all inside
All the plans I was making
Of leaving YOU behind

But when the clock struck midnight
All I thought about was you
About how I couldn't go through with
What I was thinking to do

I looked around to my brother
Kissing his girlfriend
First kiss of the year
I smiled and pretend

I daydream about you here
Holding me close to you
Kissing my forehead
Like you always seem to do

But I know that the dream
Will never come true
Because instead of me
She's the one that is with you

I didn't even call you
I couldn't dial that phone
Because I knew you was with her
And that I would always be alone

Today you call me up
Surprised I didn't call
You don't know I cried in my bed
You know nothing at all

First day in the year
And here I am with falling tears
Because I think that you are leaving me
Along with last year

I thought I could let go
But its harder than I thought
For inside my body
My conscious and heart fought

But I guess you came to the conclusion
The same one I was thinking of
To end this so called relationship
And get rid of this love

But now I am crying again
For I don't know what else to do
How can I go on in this place
Where everyday I see you

And not try to kiss you
Not try to hold you tight
Not beg you to please hug me
Or to come over some night

Your acting weird today
Like you have something to say
You've thrown a few clues at me
But I ignore them the same way

I think the next conversation
Will be end to it all
No more stolen kisses
No more midnight calls

But I guess your trying to do
What you think is right
So maybe you shouldn't be with me
Or make love to me at night

I understand even though
Its going to break me in two
For you accustomed me to your ways
And showed me how to love you

Now you leaving me behind
I'm pretty sure thats what your going to do
All I can do is cry
And figure out a way to stop loving you