I do not think this is a bad poem at all! I think it is very deep and extrmeley emtional, to me I see a lot of pain and yet also the slight sparkle of hope. Hold on to the people who love you and in turn they will hold on to you, I know how it feels to have someone stopping you from ending it all, the confused emotions that go with that.
All I can say is Stay Strong, do not let this life get you down. There are probably more people who care than you realise.
*VioletRaven*