Words 2-2-05

I want to forget all of this
And wake up like it was all of a dream
But how can I forget the ones you love and lost?
People passing by you
Judging you
Blaming you
You just want to yell at them
I want to make wish
So I can be put away
Never ever be seen again
But the people I love and care about
I just can't throw them out
I can't delete them from my memory
My watch is ticking and clicking
Till the day I'm done
I just can't wait to open up the golden door
Music and prayers screaming into my ear
No one knows how you feel
How you can be finish with a terrible lash on your back
I can't get up
I speak from my mind
It's a never-ending puzzle
People say that they love you
They say they will kill you
When your back is turn
Never noticing the real mind of my words coming out
I keep on going on
I can't even stop to say that I love you
Someone is holding me back
The pain I want to explode
Your teachers and your so-called helpers
Can find a better way of living your life
But no one better ever control my life
I just really don't care what happens to me
But the other side of me is lost in a cabinet
Never to be open till you say I love you too.