Spinning

I turn around
I see the steps I've left behind
I see past things that have
Happened to me
I feel hurt
So I turn around again and try
To move on
But I can't
I don't know if I want to
It's hard
I turn around again and back track
Every step I made
I leap to get further back
It hurts
I cry
Sometimes I try to forget about it
So I try to turn around again
I try to walk on
Or crawl
I'm hurt
I'm wounded
Sometimes I think of things that
Hurt me but have never happened
These thoughts never will happen
Either
Some thoughts are good but I
End up getting hurt again and
Crying
Because I know they won't happen Either
I do a good job of covering up These
Steps from other people
I don't want them to find me hurt
And crying
I cover up my past
In the end I'm spinning
Spinning in circles
Walking in circles
I'm not going anywhere new
I just take my self to misery
A place I'm quite familiar with
I've been there and back many
Times
And I know I will enter that sad
Familiar place once again