WORST NEW YEARS

I was wishing and planing for the best,
for this to be a great year
but I was so wrong its just gonna b like the rest
full of hurt, pain and heartbreak
last night was ment to be great
but I guess that could neva be coz
last night was filled with so much hate
I cant bare the pain anymore
its only 22hrs into the new year
ive cried 5 times and had 5 fights
i'm filled with so much fear
I worry about this so much
is the rest of the year going to be the same
if it is I wont make it to the next new year
to god it seems like one big game
to see how much hurt he can cause
but I don’t want to be a player in it
I just want to live a somewhat happy life
I don’t want to deal with so much shit
in one night I seem to have lost 2 people
2 people so close to me
my best friend and my boyfriend
this is going to have to be
the worst new year