On an Empty Bridge

I walk slowly toward it
this dreaded but beautiful place
wearing the dress you gave me
lost expression. lost expression.
i hold back the tears
i hold back the memories

I try to remember. I try to forget.
I can never tell. I can never take.
hide my heart hang my head
I walk on the side, in the shadows
forcing myself to come back
just one last time, one last time.

To this sacred place I finally arrive
arrive alone. arrive alone.
without your hand to hold
a garden once blessed
a garden now lonely for love
this garden where we used to dance
moonlight dances at midnight
flowers still linger everywhere
you grew me every color
you gave me every kind.
but that was long ago
not anymore. not anymore.

the world is spinning all around me
but i stay in one place
dreams filling my mind
the ones of which I'm dying
they are best I've ever had
i raise my eyes to see
words swimming all around my head
words you once said.

I asked a stranger to dance
he walked away uncaring
so now i stand on this empty bridge
where we first and last kissed
now underneath it only lies
more emptiness you used to fill

my eyes grow bold my eyes grow heavy
water forms like diamonds on the surface
wetness laying on black lasses
one droplet softly falls to the ground
wiping the tears from my glasses
first signs of deathly sadness

Now i fall to my knees
where you once kneeled before me
no longer keeping back the tears
that had been fighting to get out
crying crying crying
i can never stop crying...
dying dying dying
watch me as I'm dying...

now this bridge is no longer empty
for a puddle of tears has formed
a lake around the stranded bridge
to which there is no escape
after an hours worth of weeping
i finally open my damp eyes
to see a ghostly reflection
mirror of me. of who i used to be.

slowly, softly, i fall off the bridge
drowning in my puddle of sorrows
the rain showers down upon me
reminding me of a time i was happy

there i still lay. there i still lay.
the water and tears have drained away
but still in thoughts of you I ever lay
trapped in memories of you
within old memories of me.

if i can't live for something
then I'll die for nothing
I've come back just to realize
just to understand
you've forgotten me.
you've forgotten me.

~I never stopped loving you, I just pretended to forget you, never knowing I would regret you~