Believe me

by Avellana   Jan 2, 2006


The knife is twisting deeper
Hidden, so no one can see
How close I am becoming
To just being a memory

Living with wounds that never heal
And bleed me more each day
With a mind so self destructive
And fears that just won't go away

Go out shopping all on my own
And find that blade I can call mine...
Then remember I already have one
And she's with me all the time

My savior cloaked in darkness
That filled the void my heart once lived
Has now crippled the sanity
That stopped me from committing it

She kicks me when I try to stand
And beats me when I eat
Leave scars where no one will see
And never let's me sleep

So thanks to all who made me laugh
And pushed my end date further
And special thanks to the girl in the back
Who turned into my last razor

*twirls*

Written this morning around 1 o'clock.
So tired my eyes won't stop burning.

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  • 18 years ago

    by Torn

    Great poem..im shocked at how much that hit home.
    im actually speachless.
    thankyou for ur comments..mean the world..
    xoxoxo

  • 18 years ago

    by Hello Life

    Pfft your poetry is too good

    xXx

  • 18 years ago

    by BeautifulDisaster

    Wow, this is a very sad and tragic poem hun, you're an amazing writer definetly wow, "Living with wounds that never heal
    And bleed me more each day
    With a mind so self destructive
    And fears that just won't go away
    i lovee that verse it definetly describes my lifee, well done hun, keep on writing

  • 18 years ago

    by Emma

    Awe avellana, I am so unbelievably sorry you feel this way. I've gone through this befroe...and its definetly not easy...I'm glad you are putting your feelings into words though, because I love reading all of your poems!!

  • 18 years ago

    by Once an Angel

    Oh baby, oh sweetie, no no no no. Don't do that, it won't help anything, I know I have don't it. It will just make everything worse, so much worse. Please read some of my poems Like Suicide through someone else's eyes, and Because I love you, hunny even if you were not serious (even though it sounds like you were) cutting is so bad and so is suicide. I am speakinf from experiences, so many of my own experiences in life. Be strong baby, please.

    -Tainted Mikochan

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