Rape

It happened three years ago, the first time that you came,
You entered my room at night and left me with the shame.

It seemed so unreal to me, you loved me I thought,
I stood in the shower and realized it was you that I fought.

I know that I said no, but I was too afraid to scream,
You said it was nothing personal, you were just letting off some steam.

I never understood why it was me that you chose,
And why I never told someone, why no one knows.

I don't see why you always come back, every single time,
And I don't see what is wrong with me, why I can't seem to cry.

I know you think I fear you, but here I must prove you wrong,
One day it's my turn to kill you because soon I must grow strong.