Have to face your grave

I know that I've hurt you
I know I made you cry
I know I said some awful things
But I never wanted you to die

I wished you a sorry life
I wished that you would ask where I am
I wished that you would be miserable
But I never wished you dead

Now I'm the one who is sorry
How am I supposed to be brave?
When I know I'm responsible for your death
And now I have to face your grave