Confused

I guess somethings just never change,
never end,
these thoughts keep churning in my mind
reminding me of the pain thats never ending,
im almost dead

i can\'t seem to think straight
think of something new
all im seeing is memories old and new
the pain and the pleasure
everything i have been through

when did i stop following my heart
doing things i love
im confused by all i see and do
nothings real anymore
when did everything fall apart?..........

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its not finished yet but i wanted to add it to see what peaople thought so please comment, good or bad
thanks x