Without you

Scared to death
Torn at the heart
I foolishly made you my life
But now it's all falling apart

I love you so much
And I'll be lost without you
You started my recovery
And helped me make it through

If you're not in my life
Who will I have to steady me?
Keep me from myself
From my sorrow-filled sea

I'm telling you, I really need you
Please don't leave me alone
I know sometimes I look strong
But you and I both know I can't make it on my own

If you won't be the one to love me
My razor blade gladly will
You saved me last time
But this time it won't stop till it kills

You know I'm not alright
And my mask still hides it all
I've used up all my strength on the last battle
There's nothing left to do but fall

The tears that still threaten
To stain my hair and face
Take over and imprison me
I don't know me in this place

The bittersweet pain I've come to know
Controls me deep inside
I'm fighting with the little I have left
But without you it's not enough to fight off this suicide