Just for you dad

How can you say you love me?
When you cant see.
The pain that I hide inside,
That Ive tried to hide.
Ive hid it for so long,
Now im gone.
Theres nothing you can say,
Im not going to take it another day.
This if the final line,
This life is mine.
Not yours,
Or hers.
Im not going to be here much longer,
B/c Im much stronger.
Im stronger to final say good-bye.
B/c my whole life has been a lie.
I cant take it anymore.
My life will never be whole.
You tore it up like it was nothing,
But I will tell you something.
Ill tell you this,
You, I will NEVER miss.
When I leave this word,
I wont be your little girl.
This is what you get for treating me this way,
Now I wont see another day.
I wont see the sun,
What is done is done.
I wont see the moon,
Im going to do it soon.
You wont see me anymore,
Ill be six closer to the core.
Make sure its deep,
And please, dont weep.
Ill be fine,
But like I said, this is the end of the line.
Ill tell my friend,
That this is the end.
They wont see me.
B/c this is whats meant to be.
Ive taken my life,
I took it with a brand new knife.
Ill make it slow,
But please, please dont feel low.
I did this for you,
Now you can do what you do,
Without me being there.
I know now you never cared.
So as I slit my vein,
I dont feel any pain.
Now im much better,
And I start to write my suicide letter:

Mommy,
Please dont cry,
B/c I had to die.
Ill be ok,
Dont worry about today.
I had to do this.
Always remember, you I will miss.
I didnt do this b/c of you.
I know you stayed true.
I love you mom,
Please stay strong.

Daddy:
You got your wish,
Now you wont have to dis.
I did this b/c of you,
Now go do what you always do.
I wont be here for you to hit.
Youre the one who made my life shit.
This is what you get.
Im sorry that we even met.

Brother:
Im sorry I went like this.
You, I will so miss.
Take care of mom.
Make sure she stays strong.
Help her out,
But please dont shout.
Try to cut back of the weed,
This is what mom needs.
She needs someone to be there,
Someone to care.
I love you,
And I hope you do too.

Sister:
I know you didnt see this coming,
You, I will never stop loving.
Just because Im gone,
Doesnt mean you have to stop being strong.
I didnt do this b/c you wanted to leave,
I did this just for me.
He was making it harder,
He was making me a lot stronger.
Stronger for me to do this.
You, I will miss...

Then I will write a separate letter,
To my best friend,
Telling her that this was better,
And that this is the end:

Im sorry for if this causes you pain.
Im sorry that I slit my vein.
But Ill always love you,
I hope you do too.
I had to get out,
Before I shout.
I will never forget your face,
But me, Im gone without a trace.
All that we've been through together,
I shouldve known better.
But I had to do this,
You I will ALWAYS miss.
Weve been through a lot.
Weve even been on the spot.
You were there next to me,
But cant you see?
He always hit,
He made my life shit.
I know you loved me,
I can see.
But if you were me,
You wouldnt want to be.
So this is were I say good-bye
*Sigh*
Good-bye...