Nighttimes Thoughts

During the day I feel fine
As long as the sun keeps shining
I dont waste my time
Thinking of you
And all we had
But once night falls
And the stars begin to show
Memories of you and I
Are all around me
Because of you
I hate the darkness
Every light turned on
To chase you away
After all attempts
In my thoughts you stay
I finally surrender
To the memory of you
I turn out the lights
And begin to cry
I hug the pillow next to me
Wishing it was you
I am ashamed by the way I feel
I should be over you by now
You forgot about me long ago
With that thought the pain grows
There is nothing that hurts more
Than missing someone who has gone away
Never to return
Although alive and doing just fine
How can you leave me here alone
All I do is think of you and cry
The thought has crossed my mind
I would be better off if I died
Because living this way hurts too much
You are the cause and the cure
All pain disappears with your touch
I want to feel the power in your hands
Holding my body against yours
We are two people becoming one
When you feel me this way
Its the most amazing thing in the world
I cant quite put into words
I begin to feel it in my toes
As it quickly makes its way up through my legs
Until my entire body is saturated
In sweet ecstasy
Now that youre gone
I figured it out
I have finally loved another
And this time I know it was real
I thought I had loved before I met you
But I realize now how much you were different
Since youve left
I think only of you
I wonder how youre doing
And if you think of me
These things are the same as always
The same as other guys in my past
But the defining difference
Between you and the rest
Is the way I now view the world
In my history I have easily moved on
To find other guys
One night stands and dinner dates
Were no big deals for me
But now I have found myself pushing others away
I want nothing to do with anyone but you
This is how I know my love for you is real
When other guys no longer even appeal
But its not just the intimacy that makes me love you
I felt comfortable with you
I even loved your friends
Your family is really great
I thought our relationship was fate
My friends even said they couldnt believe it didnt last
Everyone seemed shocked when we split apart
Including me
You caught me completely off guard
But I am tired of trying to mend our past
I am worn down and in need of rest
I believe if we were meant to be
That life will bring us back to each other
So for now I need to let you go
I will miss you forever
I will think of you always
And I am here for you indefinitely
If ever you should see that its me you need
Just give me a call or show up at my door
Only you can return the piece of me youve tore
You hold a part of my soul
And I wish for you to keep it
As my gift to you
For all it means
You have taught me so much
I appreciate the time you gave
The pain you suffered on my behalf
I love you so much
I care for you beyond belief
Just remember for you Id give my all
I will always be secretly waiting for you
Just so you know
I will go now
Its time to sleep
If only I was waking up next to you
My life would be complete