A new start is what I need

This time a year ago,
I wasn't any happier with my life,
Over little silly things would I moan,
But now I moan over how I don't want to stay alive.

Things change,
Some say for the best,
Well I want to end this pain,
Because things have changed for the worst.

A year ago whenever I was feeling sad,
Running to me would someone come to wipe my tears,
Now whenever I'm even feeling mad,
I must hide away all of my deepest fears.

I must keep everything buried deep inside,
I must keep everything a secret,
I must run away and hide,
Before I make another regret.

A fake smile isn't enough,
People are getting devious,
This world is becoming more rough,
They all look at me with suspicion.

I have to change,
So that no- one finds me out,
Otherwise it will be me they hate,
Soon they'll be able to hear my shouts.

I'm moving to get a new start,
But I don't need one,
I just need a change of heart,
I need to feel loved by someone.

But what am I kidding myself?
I'll sit here alone,
Even if I ask for someone's help,
I can garuntee I'll be here on my own.

I wish I could turn back the hands of time,
I wish I could go back to the start,
I wish I could make you mine,
And I wish I could mend this broken heart...