The Game

I hurt you I see that now
All it took was time
To see how much you mean to me
How I couldn't just assume you were mine

I took you for granted
Dragged along on my ride
Didn't think of your pain
When I ignored you and lied

Playing you was just a game to me
Other's pain kept me alive
What was plain to see, though it pained me
Was that I needed you to survive

It's just I didn't want you to see
Who I am truly am, the real me
I disguised my pain and took it out on you
Tried to be something I couldn't be

I forgot you loved me, forgot you cared
Distanced myself to be alone
I saw you reach out, then hesitate
You know I couldn't do this alone

All of your friends tried to tell you
I wasn't worth it, let me go
But this didn't even cross your mind
You had to stay knowing what you know

Didn't phone you and ignored your calls
Caught your eye and walked away
Forced you to suffer for way too long
Could I have left it just one more day?

Thought I didn't want you
But you're what I need
You knew all my secrets
Watched me cry, saw me bleed

After a while you gave up hope
Thought you'd failed so didn't try
It was only when you didn't reach out
I knew without you I would die

We got through that then
But what about now we're apart
Don't you see we are slowing killing ourselves
Wishng to go back to the start

What makes you think I don't love you
When losing you completely is top of my fears
You're an angel and I put you through hell
And I regret it with each of my tears

*Gabriella Anderson*