My wish...

Ain't it funny how,
Some days you wake to find,
You hate your own feelings,
And wonder if its, just inside your mind?

Then you stay in bed all day,
And no one cares too think,
Each tear drop you are shedding,
Are falling, as you blink?

Then just for one moment,
You wake to realise,
It dont matter how your feeling,
No one hears, or sees your cries.

Perhaps im just invisible,
Or wearing to much make-up,
How can I prevent the things,
That makes me, want to break up?

Maybe im acting foolish,
Im not worth a breath of air,
No one stops to worry,
And no one stops to care.

Even getting through each day,
Is proving such a struggle,
I have no strength at all,
Everything is just a muddle.

I break down and cry,
As I reach out for a knife,
Im giving in, again I know,
My own shame makes me hate life.

I hate myself more and more,
For giving up all hope,
Id be better of just dead,
For this fight, I cannot cope.

Im just so sick and tired,
Of living this horrible lie,
I have no one to help me,
My wish is just do die.

ive had the worst day ever,i was hopefull for 2006 that things would be better,but i just dont no anymore.id like to no what you think?..thank you if you read this.xxx