First \"Love\"

I look into the past, at who i thought you were
The funny, confident heart-throb i longed for
Flirting and giggling but we could never be sure,
dancing around the possibility of more.

After our first kiss, i got my hopes up for your sake
i started getting more and more into you
But letting down my guard was a mistake
You still loved my best friend, i found out the truth.

My heart broken, i went on with life
then brought together that fateful night
we were given a second chance to make it without strife,
Could this be it? Could it finally be right?

But agian we were torn apart
This time by another, and a dance
You tried ending things with me to get to HER heart,
But fate decided to give us a third chance.

Finally, together, i thought things would be fine,
i let you into my life and my heart
And for a little while, we were on cloud nine
until you shot me with your poison dart.

It pierced deep into my bleeding soul
Your words reaking me in two,
Turning my heart black as coal
Leaving me lost and confused.

You played games with my heart
You played games with my mind
I should have known better from the start
Not to play into the words you said so kind

You never even cared about me
Just led me on and told me lies
You\'re such a hypocrite, why couldn\'t i see
You\'ve changed so much, makes me want to cry.

Well don\'t worry, I\'m over you
There\'s no pain, hurt or tears
At least on the outside, what everyone thinks is true
cuz i dont want you to see all of my fears.

I thought i knew you but you never opened up
Guess i wasn\'t good enough for you to let in
Wish i could forget that i ever drank from your cup
Fo you, the battle against substances was one i could never win

I guess i never knew the true you
Should have never cared for someone so untrue
All the feelings are now dead
Never again, will I listen to my heart instead of my head.