A girl no older than sixteen
Thinking her life's just about to start
But she's in for a rude awaking
In just a year she'll be the one to part.
Its not going to college that scares her
Its not leaving her friends behind
She's not scared of going to a big city
She doesn't really mind.
It's not leaving home
And its not starting over again
Not leaving high school either
That'll just be the beginning of the end.
Only in October in the beginning of the year
Someone had cancer
Who could it be
It definitely wasn't me.
Breast cancer she couldn't believe
Her eyes filling with tears
Her mommie was strong but could she with stand this test
She'd have to try her best
To see her mother
So strong and kind
To wither and become weak
This young lady was definitely in a bind.
She went to school
Every time she tried to talk she started to cry
She withheld herself and became as fragile as an egg
Time seemed to fly by.
November came around it was surgery time
December the month with the holidays and love and that whole bit
Wasn't so happy with her mother doing Chemo
This year just seemed to go to s***.
She wasn't a happy girl anymore
She was just plain sad
No one reached out to her
She was left alone
To go through the pain
Why did no one help her
What was she to gain?
One night all alone
Crying to herself
She took a knife to her room
She knew what she had to do.
She sat with tears in her eyes
Taking the knife
Slicing her wrists without any hesitation
This was not a product of her imagination.
Her world fades away
She feels a slight relief go through her body
She silently dies alone
Without a single cry for help
Not one single yelp.
A few days later
People come by
Everyone said their "I'm sorry's"
But no one knew the true pain
That she went through.
All she needed was someone to reach out
Someone to hold her and tell her it'll be okay
When she needed it most
No one was there
She was strong for so long
It was so hard to bare.
This isn't just any girl
Some random person
That sixteen year old is me
Wishing that this just wont be.
I have silently died in my own way
No one knows and no one cares
I'm not strong
It isn't only the cancer
It's being alone
I have so many friends
But no ones there in the end.
Sitting alone
Thinking of the past
It just seems so hard
I don't think I'll last.
