The Heart Broken Joke

My heart still aches and my eyes are still red,
The best thing for this world is me being dead,
I know it sounds awful but no one really cares,
I'm just the heart broken joke at which everyone stares.

My mind is racing and my body is shaking,
You think all these words here are just me faking,
But you don't know the things that I've been through,
I'm just the heart broken joke here to entertain you.

My feet are both pounding and pulsing in my ears,
I must flee this place and leave behind my fears,
I know you say you'll miss me when I'm gone,
I'm just the heart broken joke that's been gone for so long.

My arms are as red as my eyes used to be,
With more of the red coming to me,
But what do you care your not my real friend,
I'm just the heart broken joke who's bringing his pain to an end.

My body is warm and my eyes are now shut,
I don't think anyone can dig me out of this 6-foot rut,
But I cry inside this coffin deep within the earth,
I'm still just the heart broken joke who has no worth.