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Its malignant the doctor said "theres not much i can do....you`ve lived a happy 12 years and your friends and family all love you ...take these pills twice a day,love..they'll help the pain go away, and if your a religious girl it wouldn't hurt to pray." upon hearing the news of her grim fate , the young girl sadly said " I will pray to no one doctor....especial a "god" who's dead."...
they ask me why i do it? and to be honest i don't really know all i know is that this razorbalde helps the painful days go bye...you will never understand it unless you have felt what i feel..how its like my soul has been severely crushed and nothing else will make it heal.the only way i can numb the sadness is by directing the pain to another body part, within seconds i feel it across my wrist... instead of in my heart.please ... i don't ask for your acceptance and its not attention that i thrive its just that the pain i feel when i cut myself is the only thing that makes me feel alive.