I crawl into a black hole
I feel ignorant and small
Life is full of s**t and I'm stuck in this pit
I take a pill to make this all end
Its all hazy from now on
I am in a reckless dream
Its all deja-vu to me
You're sitting there with a smile that consumes me of fear
Innocent and little I hold my life so dear
Punishment never got me down the "right path"
Negativity and barbaric yells never got me anywhere
As I cry I look deeply into my eyes
My reflection has never been so foggy
I search for myself just as a little child
I ask for reasonable answers
Why was I put into this life?
Why am I miserable, stuck, and broken down?
A pound comes knocking on my door
I scream and hear a horrendous roar
I climb out the window knowing you're coming back for more
I know you've heard my screams before
I run as far as possible
Still asking the same misleading questions
Why does anyone's life have to be like this?
With scars and bruises
No one's gentle kiss
I hide from it all
I run so fast
I slip and fall
No ones ever there to help me back up
I mumble so much as I cry I sound like a drunk
I close my eyes as the moonlight shines
I awake back into my little hole
No need to bother
Climbing up will just make me weaker
The deja-vu dream is over
If I crawl out I'd fall on my face
It'll make me cry even more
So I'll stay in here until my lifes over
No need to go look for me
I'll never come out
To show you my true feelings.....
