Sitting around smoking a cigarette
Not knowing what to do next
Life has its ups and downs
One of these days my life will turn around
Right now its going down the tubes
My heart burns with agony and pain
My love for him still remains
His love for me will never gain
Everyday is the same
Life is a game we all must play
Filled with tragedy and love
Full of happiness and sadness
Love is not out to find me
Its out to quit and forfeit
At times I feel empty and unwilling
Aching with nothing but misery
I've come close to ending it all
As I walked I'd come to a great big fall
As I look back at this time
I realize its all apart of life
You learn to live
Die to love
Its all about learning from mistakes and much more
I have a long history
Where I'd know nothing about me
I'd look into the mirror
And look into my eyes deeply
It felt like a past glance was all but a dream
No one is handed second changes
Never lets me pick whatever and let me go up and dance
As I sit and write
Still holding the cigarette
I look back at my regrets
I sigh with relief that its all over with
I know people will come stab me in the back
But thats the price I'm left with
No receipts handed
No refunds
This is the life I'm left with
So I have to keep on going and never look back
