Deepen Thoughts

My heart has quickened
pace faster
desire for death much more
face turns blood red
goo drips off of my wrist
eyes blood shot
head is throbbing painfully
disturbance in the air
many dead of poison
i die of suicide
a voice screams in the air
all i quiet now
just the owl in the tree
the graves sit in rows
i stand on the churches steps
my heart sinks down in my chest
all my thoughts are blown away
not caring about anyone but me
not even hardly doing that at all
decision making is very hard
distraction from the bats that fly
the knife grows close to my wrist
my thoughts deepen in my mind
my throat tightens
hard to breathe
knife falls out of my hand
my wrist bleeds
minutes later
i lay there dead
not a single thought
runs deep inside my head
before my last breathe
my heart and mind thought
did i make up my mind
or was this an accident
my heart has stopped
no more noise
my mind is dark
hear not a single voice
my dreams are gone
nothings there anymore
my miserable life is over
and my dark deed is done
So now where ever i am
i will rest in peace
for there is no thoughts that can deepen to disturb me.