Because Of You

They're the same old excuses
The same old thing from day to day,
And I can't stop you from walking out
But for once I wish you'd stay.

You don't have to worry about me,
I promise you I'll be okay,
But that doesn't change the pain I feel now,
Or every time you turn away.

Dad, they say we look the same,
But I really wouldn't know,
Because look at you and look at me,
I never had the choice to let go.

They say that I've gone crazy, Dad,
Or maybe you haven't heard,
You never were around long enough,
For me to tell you how bad it hurt.

Where was my defense from them?
And what songs have I heard you sing
You say you love me now and forever,
But you're love doesnt mean a thing.

If you loved me like you say you did,
Then why do I sit here with a 3 word letter,
And why can I barely remember your face,
Dad, you said it would get better.

I've had enough time to think it through,
In the summer nights that would never end,
It's not fair that your decision kills me,
And all I get is a letter you send.

Dad, it's not enough anymore.
It's about time you've kept your pledge
I've loved you through thick and thin,
But you keep pushing me off the edge.

And it's because of you, I feel,
That everyone I love is leaving.
It's out of my control, there's nothing to do,
But believe each lie you're weaving.

Dad, you may not look at me much,
But all I have are these photographs,
And the stories that Mom tells about you,
Each one with forgotten laughs.

It may have been so long ago,
That you first dealt your blow by receding,
But its more apparent now the damage done,
As I sit here, broken and bleeding.

There's an old saying that reminds me of you,
That I believe you may have heard,
And I think of this, as I carve your name,
"Actions speak louder than words"

So, Dad, now that I have written this,
I wonder what your next move will be.
Will you continue to walk away and close the door,
Or will you finally just love me?

**Dedicated to my precious Georgi. It is written from her perspective, and even though some of the aspects may not be correct, I know that she's going through a hard time dealing with her father leaving. I just wanted her to know that I admire her strength and her uncanny ability to love someone that's hurting her continuously, which is what I wanted to express in this poem. So here you go, Georgi, my bestest friend in the whole world. I love you!**