Why is it that i still love you after all this time?

Remember when you told me that you loved me so?
you held me close like you never wanted to let go.
but now when i recall, it just seems like a fantasy
and now all ive got is merely a painful memory.

you lied to me when you said it was gonna be okay
you ignored me and then, even moved away.
you left me hanging and didnt leave a note
i couldnt find your whereabouts; i felt so remote

i gave you my heart but you threw it away
it seems like you deceived me all the way
i felt so hurt; but i knew you didnt care
did the guy i thought i knew disappear into thin air?

i was left there to bleed and after it all
i closed myself up; i created a wall
from then i never trusted anyone that easily
i couldnt love again; though deep down i was lonely.

i thought i had hurt enough but i guess i was wrong
i was soon to discover why i was fooled all along
i was one of your toys, a part of your bet
to see how many hearts you could break by sunset

i would lock myself in and wouldnt eat for days
and many a time i would just stare at the blade
when the coldness touched my skin, no pain did i feel
seemed like physical pain could cause the emotional pain to heal

as i sat there watching, within minutes; red blurs
i could feel the blood growing cold; washing away all of my tears
my body growing limp and your still on my mind
why is it that i still love you after all this time?

copyrighted 2006; melissa