It's not your fault mommy

I'm really sorry mummy, for the hurt I'm going to cause,
it's not your fault, its something you have no control of.

I know you love me alot and i truly love you too,
but it's a final goodbye, on paper i say to you.

There's this boy whom i really love with all my heart,
but it's something he did which ripped my soul apart.

I cannot bear the hurt, anger and pain,
although i know it is an experience i have gained.

When darkness fall and the day turns to night,
i feel alone without anyone to show me the light.

And so, i stay up all night praying to the Lord above, hoping one day we again maybe shall love.

They say time will help heal the pain, but it just didn't go away,
and for many nights and days it will be here to stay.

So i walk to the kitchen,and slowly grab a knife,
silently but swiftly, i take away my life.

Don't worry mommy, it didn't hurt at all,
I couldn't breathe and i start to fall.

I look at my hand and i know that I'm dying,
and my eyes have dried out from all that crying.

But I'm really sorry mommy, i hope you believe i do,
Please forgive me mommy, for the hurt I've caused to you.