FAKE

I can't tell you face to face
Because i know how fall i will go
Just digging myself deeper
Into my own abandoned heart
If i talk and let it all fall
Then these walls i have built will mean nothing at all
My security and this safety net
If i say then it will be real
i can't give away the key
I don't want to show my weakness
These tears building ready to fall
One day i will have nothing left at all
When they ask me if I'm okay
I always say yes, lying through my teeth
And its burning me not being able to show you
These tears I'm crying are of sadness
Pain in the deepest of my thoughts
Why couldn't i look into your eyes and show you i care
But i can't do it anyone
For me hurting you i cannot bare
This camouflage i have had to hide
Me is revealed in my shadow
So scared and mixed up in my own little world
So ready to crack at the first glimse of heat
And ready to die at my own defeat
Already gone, i realize i went along time ago
Just the truth has been re-directed
Therefore has taken a long time to show
I'm not here, this is my soul
Telling you not to hurt because of me
For this is not me
This is my soul
And my soul is loosing and has to bare this grim defeat
Defeat of life
Defeat of me
i cannot bare to see me cry another tear
And let this tare me up again