A struggle for happiness

Broken glass torn petals
Dripping drops of blood as the fear settles
Laying here in agonizing pain
Watching as the drops of blood stain
Each petal told it's own tale
So Fragile and frail
But each told this story down to every last detail
Each piece of glass held it's own moment of this shattering fear
The wounds had seemed to be severe
Black rose darkened stem
I'm broken and bruised by them
For I was kissed by a rose A rose so dark and deep
That this sudden fear arose from it's grave So dark lonely and steep
for every slice and slit of my wrist I began to bleed and it fell like rain as I began to weep
these darkened roses seemed to scream my name words not coming out they just called from their lost place
no more time for happiness there's no more space
a lost place in my dairy where words so dark so horrifying so sad come out and just grabbed you and pulled you into my pain
in my dark place I seem to let my thoughts just fall like rain
bit by bit drop by drop little by little it told a story about me
yet I put on a phony smile and seem as happy as can be
for this is my silent call for help screaming save me save me but yet no one will find out because it's trapped in my dark place
a place where I keep secrets and my darkest fears
and words that no one will ever hear
these roses know everything about me the story of my life good times and the bad
for the bad times have taken over these roses and turned them black
and happiness is what I lack
for every time I think back these roses seem to turn red
but yet still my dark place seems so dark lonely and died
I cry out to you a silent call as a silently scream help for you must now save me
for I was kissed by a rose on a grave pulled into it's pain and it shall never let me go
And no one shall ever know