Vodka Me

I can smile and I know
This smile is not a fake
And laugh and dance and be okay
The dreams this drink can make
I spin and think its heaven
And I fall upon the floor
Without thinking all the while
When will I laugh once more?
And all the games and daft mistakes
I don't take to heart
Or dream of ending it all now
To go back to the start
I still feel my love
But still I am okay
Because this poison is the perfect end
To another merciless day
And I fall asleep
Without tears or care
The fun that I am sleeping off
To wake to this nightmare
But its alright when its the night
I'm laughing and happy and fun
I'll know why I'm so different
I know that its the one
But there's one thing
That this drink won't grant
And through hazed vision and wonder
I know that it can't
To have just my one wish
I wish that I could be
Without all the vodka
A vodka me