Will I Survive/ Why

Will I survive in the live that i live. I feel so much pain that others give.

No one here to help me with my troubles and fears. So every night to dull the pain I cry a river of tears.

When will this pain stop ruling my life. Leave me alone stop causing this strife.

I want to look at the sun and happy side.Instead I look down upon myself and wonder what died.

Why is my life harder then the rest. Why is my heart and midn constantly put to the test.

What is it that you want I know not what to give. Why wont you release these burdens and let me live.

I've through hell and back trying to find my reason for living. But these trails and test you keep on living.

I want to show love but my heart won't go. Pleaze tell me what you want. Just let me know.

Why can't I find someone true. Why do all my relationships always end with Yeah I loved You.

I want to stop the pain But I cant stop whats apart of my life. Please GOD help Me