Last Remembrance of Sadness

When does this world begin
When does this torture end
When will the pain die
Where have I gone so wrong to receive this hell

When darkness turns to light
Where do I turn
All I know is the pain of darkness
So lost and alone in a world in-between sadness and happiness

The swing never ends
The judgment of myself will never cease
The gray lingers like a mist over the morning river valley
Walking through the fog looking for someone to help find my way

Is this better than before the hate and misery
I don't remember it was so long ago
I was to young then I have to grow up
Without ever really being able to grow only able to cry

I feel so alone in a crowd
They look at me and say they understand
I know they have been through this
But I don't care I stopped caring when my heart was ripped from my chest

I have to move on but to were
All who have helped me along the way have only hurt me
I have to stay strong for me for the little girl inside myself
She has kept me looking forward not back

Where am I
Where was I those 2 years of sorrow
Did I disappear to a place were only I existed
Where did I learn to do what I can do so well I cant recall

Where did my daddy go
What is this new town what were moving all over again
Did I chose this
Who are you where did you come from

I bleed my soul into trying to understand
No hope Ive given up
I have the scars to remind me of my past
But how did they get there

The fog is so thick I'm blinded
Tripping over my own feet
Slipping through the frozen river upon I walk
Finding my way through the echoing memories of a past long gone

Help me
My voice is fading now
Help me
This is my last call
Help me...

(c)Hillary Dorsey 2005
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