Different

Stared at,
looked down upon,
avoided at all costs,
ignored by society,
cast a side,
sitting alone,
watching people walk by,
isolated from them,
made different by what i do not have,
they pretend i am not there,
walk to the far side of the pavement,
pretend to talk to someone as they pass,
or hurry by with their head down,
darkness begins to fall,
the icy cold draws in,
the worst time is here,
a night of taunting by drunks,
been spat at,
yelled at,
"get a job" they will shout,
don't they think that i would,
if i could?
people won't employ those like me,
we are trapped,
no money,
but no job,
no way to escape,
no where to go,
doomed to be dependent on passers by,
on what they can spare,
have to suffer their judging,
their glares,
avoiding you as if you are diseased,
as if by coming near they may catch something,
classed as societies burden,
pushed to one side,
thought of as a waste of space,
a parasite,
feeding off others,
sucking them dry,
able to eat only when they are kind,
having life in their hands,
the shame i feel when they look at me,
with their accusing eyes,
mothers drag their children away,
tell them to keep their distance,
as if i am dangerous,
I am no different to them,
I have no fatal disease,
not dangerous, not going to hurt them,
yet they keep away,
only coming near to taunt,
to laugh at what i do not have,
throw things and spit at me,
point and laugh,
yell abuse and stare,
or hurry by whispering,
and this is what i escaped to,
from one hell to another,
from been trapped and abused to this,
still trapped, just in a different way,
still abused, but now by strangers,
alone and isolated from the world,
as it seems i shall always be.

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I just found this. it's not great I know. I wrote it about 5 years ago after i ran away from home.