She told me today that we're over,
she told me something that couldn't be any colder.
she mentioned his name,
the image of them is wracking my brain.
she wants to be just as close,
but there's something that does more than hurt.
i can't tell her i love her,
she won't allow,
i just keep asking God,
how Lord how?
why did she leave?
she never did love me.
i tried to call her last night,
my heart beating fast and full of fright,
but she pushed me away,
left me out in the cold rain.
so now i have a choice of my own to make,
a chance like hers i know I'll take.
so now shes sad,
crying,
oh too bad.
maybe she shouldn't have left me,
"her man".
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but now that all that's over to,'
Hannah could be the next thing to do.
and even if it hurts,
maybe Sarah could see my real worth.
maybe if i bruise her heart,
she'll realize how she tore my life apart.
she called me last night after yelling about the truth,
something i unknowingly laid down as proof.
but later she tried again and i let her know she could cry.
i told her it was not a lie,
that i loved her,
but then i sighed.
i saw that i too am confused,
lost,
my heart too bruised.
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: he should just leave me, i did what i did. i lost more than a boy friend, i lost my life. he says repeatedly that he sees, since he's only doing half of what i did to me. but i know what i want, its you. its your hands, your eyes. i want my man. loosing you only showed me how i deserve to live. but why walk away, when i am here?
even though i said I wanted to because it may not come again,
i see now that it's really...
why did i through away all the moments i had with him?
in the end even if he'd wanted me, i wouldn't have been able to. I'll always want you that's clear. please do what you deserve. leave me here.
his perspective: a way to live
