Dead from the start

Im trapped in this darkness,
Just alone on the side,
With nothing to do,
And everything to hide.
I stay in my dark corner,
Im too scared to leave,
These voices taunt my mind,
Im struggling to breathe.
The feeling of my life,
Is nothing else but fake,
No one will ever see me,
This is for everyones sake.
To be trapped and alone,
Is better for you all,
I will rock back and forth,
While continuing to bawl.
Just leave me to rot,
The forgotten child Ill stay,
You cant save me now,
I will be a nothing each and every day.
I always feel so weak,
Each day my eyes are swollen,
Just pretend that Im not alive,
I have realized that i have fallen.
My mind turns to mush,
And my heart is torn apart,
I will never change again,
I was dead from the very start.