My Differences

Forget the 3 years
Erase it from me.
My loss of everything
All hope is gone.

Lost the natural intelligence
True friends and their trust.
Mixed feelings within me
Wanting out of this world.

Thinking I wouldn't cope
That I couldn't do anything right
Not understanding who I was
What had become of me?

My innocence was stolen
Guilt is what i conveyed
I blamed myself constantly
Harming myself to ease the pain.

But from that i got hate,
Betrayal, lies and deceit
So i had to learn my lesson
For everybody's sakes.

Now i always get help
To keep everyone satisfied
Trying to be different
And lead a normal life.

I don't get any thanks
No one sees me through
Everyone thinks I'm happy and
that I'm never feeling blue.

I'm always feeling lonely
Not having anyone to talk to.
Crying myself to sleep
Waking with a numb feeling.

I don't have anywhere to go
No where to run and hide.
Nobody to confide in
Nothing to feel due to their pride.

All what i can do now
Is to wait for your calls
See how long it takes
To be wanted once and for all.

I'll never be the same
Not to feel any shame.
Everything will be OK
There will be no other way.

I'll be here waiting
For a friend
Who I can trust
And care for me until the end