Life after trapped in the hidden truth

This Is a poem that is one of the ending part of trapped in the hidden truth

And we lived happily ever after that's what you think for I was still trapped in the hidden truth
It happens to everyone but for me it happened in my youth
Looking out the window as I watch it rain
As I count the tear drops and reminisce on my pain
Each rain drop each one of my tears
Adds up to all the pain I've been going through these years
What a dark and thunderous night
A night that I can compare to my life dark cold alone nothing seems right
Counting the blots of lighting and the alerting sounds of thunder
Counting the tear drops and pain with endless wonder
Will every thing be all right?
Do I still have to keep on my armor as I put up a fight?
Do I still have to be brave?
Do I still have to hope and pray for the happiness I crave?
Looking up I see some hope some sign of light
But it's just my mind playing tricks on me hoping one day these thoughts would be right
Breathing heavily on the glass
This pain weighs me down like a heavy mass
Holding me back in this dark place
As I said before there is no more room for happiness there no more space
Reminisce and I cry
I want this pain to be over I just want it to die
This pain is hovering over me lurking in the skies above
There's no sign of beauty not even a white dove
Crying day and night
Praying that every thing would one day be alright
But beauty has a price that we must all pay
Beauty is a curse on the world you must trust what I say
For I've been down that path and back
And now my world seems dark and black
For beauty has been wiped away, away from me wiped of the face of my world
This curse may forever be alive unless unfurled
I've been down that path of beauty and I've paid the cost
For everything I've lost
For I looked into he's eyes of beauty and I was truly lost
And now in the darkest world I have paid the cost
For beauty is a curse on the world for it draws you in
A lose a pain a curse that holds you within