I Won't Be Hurt Again

God, I just can't take my life
I've been through so much pain
Every since you've left
My life hasn't been the same

I always cried over you
And my hands would always shake
Death was always on my mind
When I was asleep and awake

I cut myself everyday
Until my friends caught on
Most nights I'd just stay awake
Until the crack of dawn

I'd toss and turn thinking of you
And how my life's a mess
I'd think of what you've done to me
And still wishing you the best

And when the blood poured out of me
I couldn't help but cry
I wouldn't wipe the blood away
Until it all had dried

My friends had gotten worried
My parents had gotten scared
But they'd do something about it
If they really cared

I'm not talking about therapy
I've tried that once before
I'm talking about loving me
And oh just so much more

I built a wall away from life
So no one would ever get near
And if anyone ever got in
That was my worst fear

I knew if someone gotten close again
I was just going to get hurt
And then one day they'd find my dead
And bury me in the dirt

I wouldn't be able to take the pain again
So that's why I shut you out
Because I know you will hurt me someday
That is without a doubt

So just let me be and leave me alone
I don't want you by me at all
The higher you get my hopes up
The more I have to fall