They think i dont no that?

If someone would come up and ask me to tell them my story of life i wouldnt not because im mean but cuz i dont want them to worry cry or feel bad for me or because of me. its not ur fault ive been told like they think i dont no that! but the sad thing is i keep coming up with the fact..if its not my fault then whos is it? godds or could it be my parents? pluse if i didnt do this or if i didnt do that maybe none of this would have happened in the 1st place! its not ur fault its not ur fault they all like to say..but i would just like to give them a hint and be on my way!

i dont want to look back one day and say i could have done better i should have done better or ask myself y! but the sad thing is i no that day will come and ill be sitting on the frunt porch ready to cry. no one might no or maybe no one will care or maybe everyone jsut wont no whats going on up there! but i no it will happen cuse it already has.. its hard to believe but noone else nos my past!

ppl tell me i cant while i no that i can its just that yall are breaking my litl heart litl by litl in the end! its to hart to focus when ur being called dumb and u dont understand! you call feel all eyes on u with out glansing around! the bottled up feelings inside are going to explode! no they cant come out they wont come out i wont let them out not today and not to me! i wont let it i just wont. but we all no that they will and the day i do let them out or the day that they do fall out is the day that i will die!

but one thing is for cretin...that if i put my heart to i might just secede though out this life and maybe u will too!!

besides it takes more guts to stay in this world and live through it than it would to just leave!!

i think i might stay!!

*i won 2nd place with this pome and is now in a poetry book! hope u liked it! lol ashley
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