Sometimes you really wonder if theres a Heaven or Hell
If theres a God
Or such thing as after life
That I'm suppose to believe in to be saved
And to live again forever in peace and a perfect world
Time and Time again
I found myself looking up
Wonder what happen to success
I don't know what it means to succeed anymore
Cause I fell and never was able to pick myself up
And here I stand looking up
I don't think I've accomplished anything lately
I have some good days
And of course I have bad days
And those bad days seem to take over
Of those use to be perfect days
Even though I have second thoughts about this Heaven thing
And if God really is your answer
I seem to find the reason to pray and ask for help
Maybe to change what I think about it all around
I pray for the strength and forgiveness to make it through this sinful way of life
I ask him for the courage to face the facts
And the knowledge to tell others to make better choices
But sometimes I wonder if he ever listens
I don't want the riches of the world
No money or the gold
I just want a way to make this better for everybody
And a solid path to teach others
As I leave my foot steps behind
I wipe these tears away from my eyes
And I fight what I have to
Just to get one step farther
Than the things that try to hold me back
Not so sure what keeps me from walking away
But whatever it takes I'm willing to give
And for right now
I stand staring up at what I use to have
