What i really meant,*

What i really meant to say was that I'm sorry for who i became.
i apologize for turning you off, and i want to kill myself everyday for letting you walk away.i don't know what i thought, who was i to think you'd just stay? i guess i trusted and believed the wrong person. what i really meant to do was to come back to you, but then you put me out, and of course theres all those things you talked about. you acted as if i had broke your heart, and of course you had no part. what i really meant was to marry you, but now i guess i see. what i really meant was for it to always be you and me. so you can take every chance, don't save the last dance, cuz babi, maybe this time I won't come back?
what i really meant to say was all i felt, but you never were yourself so i held back, now i see i shouldn't look back. what i really mean is that i love you, I've never needed you more, and i see it now that no matter what you understand, you'll probably walk out the door.

*this sucks, but when i can concentrate I'll try to fix it, vote on sum other stuff of mine please, love