Teenage Thoughts

There’s no way on Earth
You can put these tears back in my eyes
It only takes one time of crying
To get them to pour out
It’d be like putting sound back to a speaker
Or rain back to a cloud
Once the tears hit my cheeks
No way of stopping them from pouring out

Teenage years are supposed to be the best of your life
But oh so much to go through
I’m only two years into it
And I want to go back to when I was 5
I’m already confused on my future
That’s so far down the road
I’m so nosey; I want to know what will happen
But its reality, I’ll never know

I’ve change my mind so much
On things I want to be involved in
I’ve let family members down
But it’s really not my fault
I’d never ever know
What I want to grow up to be
If I didn’t try things out
So why be mad at me?

I’ve been trying to live for God
I think I’m doing really well
A smoke has never hit my lips
Never have I swallowed a drink
I live in a world
Where everyday there’s a fight
Even in the schools
Students have been trying to take their lives

I feel so pressured sometimes
Like what I do is never enough
Grades brought up, only one down
That doesn’t look right coming from me
Work hard everyday
All I asked for is to be looked at as “smart”
Every night when I pray

Certain little things that happen
The finger points at me
My hands go up; I didn’t do it
No one hears or believes
Never a friend or teachers fault
Every time always mine
I’m having to wear clothes that sparkle
To make myself shine

Your doubt and disbelief
May cause a teen pain
So if you have a child or younger sibling
Listen to them, let them explain