Torn apart

Inside it's tearing me apart,
All of the harsh words people speak,
It's shattering my heart,
Along with my silent screams.

Right now I'm locked away in my room,
Tears falling like acid rain,
I can't seem to change no matter what I do,
I wish I could show people my pain.

What have I done to deserve this?
I always tried my best,
Now you make a list,
Of how I was always "better than the rest."

Well I never have been,
I've always just hidden it away,
You don't know how it feels,
To want to die every day.

I pull through all the time,
I don't know who it's for,
I wish you knew how many times I cry,
And I wish you knew way more.

But I must keep myself a secret,
All hidden and locked away,
I don't know who holds the key,
And I don't know what keeps me alive each day...