I can\'t deal with these feelings,
That Iâ??ve kept deep inside me
So I\'ve decided to shut them out,
so that no one else can see.
Iâ??ll let myself turn black and cold,
Nothing will matter anymore.
And no matter who tries to help,
All Iâ??ll do is ignore.
I donâ??t want to drag you down,
Into my dark, black world.
Because you have enough problems,
Many that because of me cannot be cured.
No matter how much you care,
And no matter how much you love
I canâ??t open up to you Iâ??m just not ready
There are things that hurt me you canâ??t even think of.
So shutting it out,
Saves me from this pain.
Becoming completely numb,
Cuz I have nothing else to gain.
Itâ??s easier to lie,
And make it seem ok
Rather then tell you the truth,
And ruin your day.
All I want is happiness for you
For you to smile even if I donâ??t
So I wonâ??t tell you why Iâ??m hurting
Itâ??s not that I cant, itâ??s that I wonâ??t.
