Waiting

The time here passes slowly
As I sit and think of you
Dreaming all your memories
And wanting something new.

I cry myself to sleep at night
I still can feel your breath
Wanting nothing more then
To welcome my new death

I want this to be over with
Iâ??m weary of these tears
Loosing you forever
Is the worst of my new fears

I see you in my dreams at night
Sleeping in your bed
As I reach to try to touch you
I see, its all just in my head

Ever since, you left me
Nothing feels the same
I sit and think of people
Of who that I can blame

Because I could never blame you
And I can never hate
All that I can do now
Is patiently sit and wait

Hiding all the pain though
Is something hard to do
Painting on a smile
For everyone but you

The paint is wearing thin though
I think itâ??s almost out
Every dayâ??s a little harder
And Iâ??m filled with only doubt

People always ask me
What it is I see
In a boy, that has such troubles
In trying to be free

And every time they ask me
I say, with tears still in my eyes
â??I see something you could never!â??
But to them its all just lies.

Some just try to scold me
While others call me, mad
If funny how they can act like
They think that their my dad

But I know, you'll always be there
To brush away my tears
And always have the courage
To drive away my fears.

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