I Can't

I can't change what I did.

Pencil markings,
Trace my path.
Permanent market,
Highlights the lasting image.

I can't change the scars.

Don't match my outfit,
Don't fit with my hair.
I just have to live with it,
Cuts, up and down.

I can't alter my markings.

Under pressure,
It was finally released.
Tension of blood,
Burning internally.

I can't make it right.

History is behind me,
No change of what I did.
Regret that I have to live,
With a mistake.

I can't erase all wrong.

Many errors,
Many faults.
I learnt from it,
I learnt I had to shout.

I can't stay how I was.

I have to get help.