My heart and life inside me

My heart is going dark,
trees are falling down with the bark,
you don't know my pain,
as I sit in the rain.

It is to much for me,
as I look in the mirror you see,
I look in my eyes,
and just want to die.

I don't care,
I will just stare,
as I have nothing to say,
here I will stay.

Leave me be,
let me rest and see,
let me see the truth behind this,
and I won't be pi**.

I want to decease,
and be left in peace,
so pick up a scythe,
and take my life.

Or I will take a blade,
and my vision will fade,
with the knife,
I will take my life.