A Best Friends Suicide

It's 2 o`clock in the morning, I just left your house
Thinking about what we said, the things we talked about.
you said life was hard, sometimes it's not worth it.
I said things will get better, then said that was bulls-hit.
you mention that you tried, once to kill yourself.
It left me in shock I guess, but I've tried myself.
I didn't tell you that, I knew you'd only worry.
some things are best kept secret, that's what you told me.
I felt a little guilty, but the guilt soon passed.
And so did my worries, we got over it pretty fast.
Theres was one thing you said, that really made me wonder
What goes on when we're dead, what goes on when we're under
I made it home, thoughts still running through my head.
I really didn't know what I'd do if you were dead.
I woke up late the next morning, around 12 or 1.
The phone rang constantly, I knew something was wrong.
Your mother was on the phone, sounded shaking and scared.
I didn't give her time to speak, said "sit back I'll be there."
by the time I made it to your house, only ambulances were in sight.
And from that second on, I knew something wasn't right.
I saw your mother on the ground, her eyes filled pitch red
she said "please God don't do this, don't let my daughter be dead."
I wasn't sure it was that, I couldn't understand what she was saying.
then she dropped to her knees, crying and praying.
I headed to the front porch, she told me "please don't go in there."
I stared in her eyes, I could tell that she was scared.
I ran into the house, pushing officers to the side
I couldn't believe what I saw...my best friend committed suicide.