Mentally Abused

You don't know what you did to me
You don't know how much it hurt
I can't believe you did this..
You seemed so nice at first..
Like we'd be friends for awhile..
But then you had some to drink..
And things started to get a lil wild..
You kissed me.
You touched places that i've never been touched before..
You wouldnt leave me alone..
I told you to stop,to leave me alone..
But i guess the acohol took over
And there was no stopin you
I didn't know what to do..

My friends were there..
And when i told someone older they agreed with me
But when we talked after that my friends said i was a sl*t and i lied..
They made me lose my boyfriend for awhile..
My life was goin down hill
I didn't know what to do anymore..
Should i overdose on pills?
Take the rope?
Or the sharp razor..
As long as it would put an end to the pain i wouldnt care..

I can't even sleep anymore for one full night
Because nothings ever alright
I see ur face...it haunts me
It makes me cry each time i think of the friends i once had..
You turned them against me
Each memory is drivin me mad
I try to forgot..try to be happy..
But I just cant..

All i could do to relax myself was sit and cry
And have the reflection of the razor in my eye..
I wasnt sure..should i do it..or should i not?
I wanted to,but i could not..
The pain still haunts me..
But each day i've became stronger...

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