But...

I wanted to smile
but there was always a frown
i wanted to scream
but never made a sound

i wanted to stop
but couldn't put the blade down
i wanted to get up
but i just lay on the ground

i wanted the blood
to stop running down my arm
but i couldn't help it
i put myself in this harm

i wanted to stop breathing
but kept taking a breath
i wanted to be empty
of all that was left

i wanted not to be close
but needed you near
i wanted to be saved
but gave into my fear

i wanted no part
in this play called "my life"
but i learned every line
and said them all right

i hated to lie
but hid it all well
i kept my dark secret
no one did i tell

so here i am now
lying on this cold, hard floor
my body is numb
but yet I'm so sore

i shut my eyes
and let out a deep sigh
i gave up trying
and whispered good-bye