Please

Please

Please dont cry for me...
Please dont feel sorry...
This is my life..
And the cuts i make are for me to feel..
Not for you to see
I realise my pain from blood that falls from my arms..
From tears leaving my eyes..
I don't want to hurt those who care..
But this is me..
Maybe if u knew then u'd understand..

Please dont worry about me
Please dont cry..
Because i'll be ok...
I'll still be here tomorrow...
As i am here today..
I'll be here always..
Even tho i wished i wasnt..

I have tears leaving my eyes..
And i'm asking myself why..
Why i feel this way..
Why wont it go away
Why do i have this curse?
Why wont it leave me alone?
Why can't i be just be like you...
And not feel this way..

Sometimes i just sit on my bed lookin up.
I can hear only the sounds of yellin...
And then the tears just fall..
It's like im livin in hell..
I hear ur voice telling me its gonna be ok..
I wish i still had u here with me
That u didnt take ur life..
Auntys crying...You were my cousin i always turned too
Lookin back on the pictures makes me want to be with you just one more time
But thats never gonna happen..at least till the day i die
Maybe if u understood